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Cold unwelcoming steel
On my skin
The ach in my arms,
Smell of the leather,
Tast the blood.
Do I put myself through this?
It might be
You won't have me
Any other way,
Don't like me
To be in control,
Can't face me
Or then again,
I just like the sting.
Whatever it Takes
If I changed would you love me more?
Maybe if I where a blond?
I certainly could usse some fun.
Do you secretly prefer green eyes
To my muddy brown?
I'll do whatever it takes,
Trust me in that.
I'll stop wearing makeup,
I won't flirt with our friends,
Just name your price.
When you look to your side,
Would you like it if i were there,
Or do you want me in the shadows?
I can be bold or catious,
Gentle or agressive.
Just tell me what you want from me
And I'll give it to you.
I can be anything at all,
As long as I'm in your arms.
Just when I think I can't take any more,
When I get so mad at you I could scream;
Just when I've almost had enough
Of having too little,
You have to go and do something
That reminds me
Of why I love you
In the crazy way that I do,
And I fall all over again.
Bite me, you say,
But if I tried
You would push me away
Of course you would,
Because that is what you do
Every time I try to get close to you,
Or share something special.
You distance me
With your comments,
And the look in your eyes;
The way you don't return my hugs,
Or my calls.
Stop toying with me for christ's sake.
Don't lead me on
And then run,
I'm getting tired of trying to keep up.
Playing with my Heart
If you love me the way you say
Then start showing it.
Don't hold me captive
With your empty promises.
I need affection
More than anything else,
But you just play with my heart,
And leave it lying in the dirt,
Covered in the dust
Of the quick getaway you make
Whenever anything gets to real.
I think you are just kidding youreself,
But I'm not laughing, am I?
Something has got to change,
Because I can't go on this way much longer.
Oh black heart,
Not as black as you should be,
Would that you could have remained
Cold and safe,
For now I'm burning up in your flames.
You will either parish
Or be hers forever.
But isn't that the same thing anyway?
Hazardously Devoted to You
Why do I do this to myself?
Lying alone in the dark of night,
I can't help but think of you,
And the way you love me.
The way you are never near when I need you.
I can't stop myself from wondering
How much you really care for me,
Or when you will leave me.
Will I be able to survive without you when you do?
I'm not so sure I will.
Nothing lasts forever,
That is what I'm told.
But how long is this moment by comparison?
Will I look back on today with regrets,
Or with the longing that only comes from a lost love?
If I call out to you
Will you come to my rescue
And share my bed tonight?
I need you more than ever before,
But never will dare to ask.
Are you laying awake thinking of me,
The way I do every night,
Every time I close my eyes?
When will you stop hiding behind your fear,
And let me into your heart?
I see you turn your head from me.
Have you turned your heart as well?
I should be able to tell from the look in your eyes
Or the way you hold my hand,
But every time I think I know you g
Against All Odds
"I'm coming!" I called down the hall to Alice. She was standing in the doorway, the afternoon sun shining through her reddish-blond hair, making her look like an angel. My fallen angel.
"Hurry up!" She hissed in a stage whisper.
Shoving the last binder into my locker, I slammed the door shut before anything had the chance to escape. We where already later for French, but I didn't really care. It wasn't as if we were going to it anyway. I was more worried about getting caught by the headmistress before we managed to sneak off of the school grounds. The down side to attending St. Mary's Boarding School for Girls: they expected you to actually attend. On the up-side, it was an all-girls school. I know that most girls wouldn't think of that as a good thing, but I did, No boys meant that it didn't seem suspicious to anyone that I didn't have a boyfriend. Tall, s
Why can't I get this voice out of my head,
The one that says you are going to leave,
That you don't love me any more,
That you never really did.
That old feeling is back again,
The one that makes me want to run into traffic,
To play chicken with a cement truck,
Just to see what will happen.
I can hear her again,
This lost lonely girl,
The one who lives beyond the tide line,
Who only wants someone to care.
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